I’ve struggled for most of my life with a small, nagging, hyper-critical voice in the back of mind that too often criticizes my words and actions: “You’re doing this wrong… No one cares what you have to say… People don’t like you…” No, it’s not a literal voice! I’m just susceptible to thoughts and feelings that lead to self-doubt. I suspect many of you can relate. By God’s grace, I’m learning to tune that voice out, and it’s not as loud as it once was. About six months ago I wrote and recorded a song about it called “My Own Worst Critic.” I’m going to play it with the Vinebranch band on Friday but readers of this blog can get a special sneak preview. (Ha!) Click the link below.
The words are as follows:
When I read your bad reviews
I don’t know why it’s still front-page news
That I give you the space to make your case against me
You hate me
Well it’s time for us to end
And I don’t know why I ever called you my friend
When you just put me down, stop hanging around with me
You hate me
Chorus:
Step off, step down, get bent, retire
Go away blow away, repent, get fired
Well, I’m shutting you out
And I know beyond a shadow of doubt
That you’re part of the past, I won’t let you outlast me
I’ll get free
Take the hinges off the door
Tell your friends I won’t be back anymore
I got nothing to hide, gonna go for a ride away
From you
Bridge:
And I won’t miss you accusing me
You kill all my bliss with all your blues-ing me
Better start losing me
Forever
Repeat chorus, etc.
I recorded and mixed it in GarageBand. I play all guitars and bass. I also sing. The drums were played by my Mac. (He’s not a fancy drummer, but he keeps a steady beat.) It’s not a professional recording, but I think it sounds O.K.
Enjoy!
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